crowded season

i seldom blogging early in the morning,
but no idea,
coz this is the only free time i left now..
this semester i need to catch up a lot of thing,
so i cnt b playful anymore...
this is a promise to myself,
i dun wan to break it anymore...
jh came n bac last week,
everything happen so faz,
kinda miss she badly,
when we gonna meet up again,
is ok, nxt year we cn hang out like usual..
yesterday chat wif mr. edwin,
really feel grateful to him,
he do help me a lot,
although he failed for recommended me,
is ok, i still gt some extra thing tht i wish to ve..
n about my timetable,
im so lucky tht i gt a chance to rearrange,
i muz appreciate the chances tht i gt 4 myself..
veron tell me she ll leave too,
this week alvin n veron gonna leave,
so sad tht we cnt owez gather anymore,
i gonna miss them very much..
they juz stay at ipoh,
so mayb we still can meet,
is ok, wish them all the best..
kampar, my last three months at here,
i wanna smile from the bottom of my heart,
i wanna do my best for everything..
before i leave,
i wanna capture every unforgettable moment,
this gonna b one of my sweet memory in my life time..

surprise

whats a BIG BIG surprise today...
edan ask me to ve dinner today,
but i over sleep again,
he knock my door non-stop,
i awake n open my door...
he gve me a bag,
i feel it is so familiar,
so i open n c,
im shock to found the DKNY,
someone pass through my mind..
LOW JIA HUI!!!
my babe came back!
she is sitting at 1402 living room!
arghxxx.......
im so glad to c her again,
whats a big surprise...
today is a beautiful day,
i 4get i feel unwell today,
i 4get the pressure again..
yesterday kl,
today ipoh,
2moro ipoh.........
omg, im crazy dy!!
enjoy our dinner at ipoh,
we gonna separate soon,
alvin gonna leave,
hard for us to gather often,
appreciate every moment we ve..


juz sth went wrong today,
i hate myself for tht moment so much,
i send a msg to a wrong person..
im too happy,
n half awake,
i wanna share my happiness wif him,
but i send to a wrong guy,
wish tht guy ll nvr misunderstanding,
juz forget it... 

moon cake festival

finally i decided to go kl,
we juz meet for a while,
but i do appreciate every moment we owned,
i love sushi,
thx for company me to ve it,
i knw he dislike sushi...
i love godiva,
i feel it meant a lot for us...
window shopping at pavillion,
went home wif only one small bag,
i miss the day i can b shopaholic,
so sad.........
everything went well,
but finally his text really make me disappointed,
destroy a meaningful day,
i quite regret for went ther...
nvr force me to follow ur way,
i ve my own reason...
he juz ll think in negative way,
however i do wish he really can put down too,
so is alright,
wish him all the best...
godiva is a memorable thing for us,
which sign the day we begin,
which oso sign the day we end...
last part of our story,
in moon cake festival,
is time to let u go,
end...

recently

still quite free for this few day,
average 1 class per day,
so i went to ipoh on monday,
starbuck again, a good opening for sem 3,
but din followed by mc donald,
i took a XXL chicken chop as dinner,
for diet purpose i juz eat half,
if nt sure i ll expand again........
while 2day i done all the job i ve to,
pay my rental, electric n water bill,
buy some masks from guardian,
 i wanna work harder on my skin,
fallen skin, u gonna company me forever... 
im quite surprise when i receive a msg from him,
so many years,
finally he break up,
nobody cn accept to pay their love without asking return,
im so sorry tht im nt suit him,
wish him all the best in future,
he ll gt the right one..
i din reply his msg,
mayb im used to his caring n love,
i need some time to adapt myself too...
i dun wanna make any explain,
i juz ll make everything become more complicated,
is good for him to put down everything,
this ll b the last time,
no more nxt episode for us,
he ll b my friend forever..
im a selfish girl,
sorry for hurt u,
u r nt my mr. right...

kampar-ing

1st day bac to kampar,
take a short nap after i done my household..
sit in front of lappy,
i miss my home,
but what can i do..
sth crash into my mind,
i fall in love to cctv at tht moment,
i can watch what is happening at home,
this make me feel like my house juz beside me,
thts so great,
thx daddy a lot..
chat wif some friend after tht,
so many gonna leave utar,
feel so sad..
can u all dun leave?
i think cnt,
so juz appreciate the last moments..
i should used to an opinion,
"if i failed one subject,
then i need to pay wif one finger.."
then i sure ll study hard,
whats a crazy idea...
hahax.. but i like it,
mayb i cn pass wif this..
daddy is asking my opinion,
im so nervous to make decision,
i hate to choose,
its very danger..
should i leave kampar,
im wondering,
my friend say i ll ve sem 5 n 6 n.....
touch wood,
but  i oso cnt confirm tht i cn pass all..
THINKING...
KAMPAR, suddenly feel i like here so much..

last day of my holiday

early in d morning i groom my mood,
4get bout the result,
no matter how hard,
i muz graduate from UTAR FOUNDATION,
so no point to sad for the past,
mr. pek oso wont change my result dy,
better enjoy my last day of holiday...
done grooming for my beloved VIP today,
VERY IMPORTANT PET,
new maid haven come,
so sorry to mummy n sister,
make them bz all the time for my children..
luckily daddy change his mind at last,
he din send any1 of them away..
im so glad n appreciate to him..
they are the present from daddy,
he know i love puppy very much,
but he dislike pet,
sth happen n im very sad,
he tried to make me happy,
he bring them into my life,
he tried to accept them,
it is one of the most wonderful part in my life..
some ppl feel tht im crazy,
in my heart owez family come 1st,
then follow wif my pet,
then only some other,
such as LOVE..
1st time i leave my home,
im quite worry bout my family n pet,
but my family can take care themselves,
my pets cant..
luckily my family do take gd care on them,
then i start worry they ll forget me,
when my sis phone me n say,
"you know what ur baby boy did?
he tought u r at upstair dun 1 2 come down,
he wait at the stair for so many days,
n finally he jump across the gate at staircase,
he run into ur room n try to find u,
he smell through ur room,
n finally lay on ur soft toys.."
im so sad to hear tht,
i wish to bring them along,
they r part of my family,
nvr leave me whenever i need,
even i seldom home,
they nvr 4get who i am,
mummy love u all so much...
a long chat wif my sweety again,
no worry im fine dy,
i oledy keep the bottle of panadol into coffer..
i ll try to follow ur schedule,
but i ll wakup at 6 nt 5,
hahax...


my holiday end,
in this few days,
do thx my family n him a lot,
u all make my holiday full wif sweet memories..
now my battery is 101%,
should b enuf for my sem 3...
daddy mummy i ll try my best,
dun wanna make u all worry anymore..
left quarter of 2010 year,
i muz manage the rest of the year carefully..
done packing my things,
put my luggage on car,
this scene repeat again n again,
i miss my family n them more n more..
semester 3, im coming to u,
wish tht luck ll owez wif me..

failed

when i knw my result,

im quite unhappy,

but no point for me 2 unhappy...

i knw tht my result ll b like this,

i din pay hard work,

so i ve no right to unhappy..

daddy n mummy smile to me,

say is ok dun sad o pressure,

this is the reason i feel sad..

i prefer they angry more,

so sorry for owez make them worry,

n thx for ur support all the time..

i choose utar,

i choose foundation in science,

so i ll gt through it...

halo, semester 4,

im coming to u...

eyes on me

im nt a pretty girl,
i dun ve a model's body shape..
im nt an intelligence girl,
i dun even knw can i pass my exam..
im nt a kind girl,
i ll owez hold the grudge..
im nt a sweet girl,
i ll use filthy language when im angry.. 
im nt a cute girl,
i dislike to relate wif kawaii...
im nt an innocent girl,
i ll retort for every dissatisfied..
im not a hardworking girl,
i owez do my work at last minute..
im nt a sage,
i know im NOT perfect..
BUT dun u judge on me,
no comment to my private life,
unless u r perfect..
every one live in their own way,
ther nvr ve right o wrong,
life is not a moral text book,
dun need to tick o cross for others deed n manner...
learn to respect others is a way to respect YOURSELF..

sister

online 2 hours once a week on saturday,
no online game,
no movie before done homework,
maintain result around top 30,
no feat back when im talking.


as a sister, mayb im too strict to my brother,
control his everything,
i wish him to b perfect,
even myself oso cant make it，
feel im quite over this time..
i dun like him to on9 too much,
he still dunno how to use network in right way,
im worrying he ll turn bad..
im not allowed him to play online game,
i dun 1 him to addicted to it,
this ll affect his study n waste a lot of time..
i dun 1 him to watch movie too often,
he juz repeat to the movie he ve been watched,
is better to use the time to study more..
i wish he can maintain his result in top 30,
i know him quite well,
he can make it juz he is lazy,
he need pressure to make him score good result,
i juz wish tht he cn ve brighter future..
i dun like him to feat back when im scolding,
he owez show his negative attitude to me,
i wish he can accept what i say...


daddy is right,
if i cn b patience to him like how i treat my pets,
he ll hear to me,
it shouldnt b hard to me..
he is the youngest child in family,
i try my best to gve him all the best,
juz i din use the same way as parents,
i dun wan to make him feel tht he can do whatever he like,
so i owez treat him fiercely...
he is my only brother,
impossible that im not love him,
make parents worry again,
wish tht no next time,
i ll try to control my temper..
is easy to b a sister tht dun care everything,
but is hard to b a sister tht worry for everything..
i din play my role well,
so only gt those prob..
family owez come 1st in my life,
i ll try to cope every problem..

family day

when i still stay at hometown,

when i still study here,

everyday, im waiting for sunday,

family day..

sometime if i wakup in time,

i ll follow mummy to market,

buy some breakfast n magazine,

den went home,

take my breakfast,

follow by a nap...

after tht daddy ll call us,

we ll prepare to go out..

i like the scene,

someone is bathing,

i can heard the sound of water flow,

someone is drying hair,

i can heard the sound of hair dryer,

someone is finding clothes,

i can heard the sound of cupboard,

someone is finding shoes,

i can heard the sound of high heels,

somone is waiting,

i can heard the sound of hasten...

i love to be some one in tht scene,

love too hang out wif my family,

we chat on the way,

we laugh and smile together,

phone brother to talk wif him..

this is the only day tht we all r free,

we all can gather n talk,

i love my family,

even we din go out,

i like to gather wif them...

although daddy owez comment on me,

i know tht is bcz he love me...

although mummy owez show impatience,

i knw tht she care me...

last saturday we went to padang besa,

part of thailand,

bought a lot of junk food,

n ve a great dinner,

follow by sunday,

i din shopping crazily,

coz i went to movie wif friend...

ＲＥＳＩＤＥＮＣＥ　ＥＶＩＬ

whats a scary movie,

bt is better than last few episode...

i hate scary movie,

i thought i wont watch tht anymore,

n this ll b the last time for residence evil.....

so glad to meet jason again,

around 4 months we din meet up,

a great day wif him too...

my sweety promise ll join us nxt time,

wish tht day coming soon..

today i check for my result,

haven come out,

feel quite worry,

waiting for the bad news,

i guess..................

this ll b the only bad part of my holiday..

SIGH, whatever la...

dating

how long we din really talk to each other,

face by face juz us...

i like him to beside me,

im talking nonstop,

he is hearing like a kid,

obey everything i wish,

im the queen in his world,

rule him...

no shisha, no alcohol, no clubbing,

he juz ll say yes dear...

im so happy to hear tht,

i knw thts real...

2day we hang out till late nite,

1st time im home so late,

luckily he is daddy's brother,

WOOTS!!

but he do make me unhappy TOO,

password is nt a secret between us,

but dun force me to gve u...

DISLIKE.........

if u dun wish me to BLOCK ur call,

den dun make me unhappy..

I HATE U...

upside down day

2day my plan i go to thailand,

BUT................

my sister was sick,

she gt poison of food,

SO..................

as a sister,

i take care of she at home...

mummy n daddy go themselves,

bcz their friend came,

so they ve to go...

i slept at 4 sth yesterday nite,

mummy wake me up at 9,

for my beloved sister....

cook porridge in unconsciousness situation,

den prepare some appetite for she,

drink a cup of milk as my breakfast,

went bac to my room,

n continue to sleep...

he wake me up at 4 by call,

im really a pig,

he gonna leave tomoro,

wish him all the best,

n owez in the right path...

a nice chat wif him 2day,

at least no quarrel...
after tht i heard a song,
"We Are The World"
agree wif it,
we are the children of the world,
everyone muz learn to gve,
i ll rmb this,
i ll make it too...

holiday

plan

1. go thailand eat

2. practice yoga

3. on diet

4. sauna

5. spa

6. go penang walk around

7. go kl shopping

8. grooming for my beloved

9. watch all movie i want

10. read novel

11. sleep enough

this is only part of my plan for my holiday, 

i oledy use 2 days to watch movie..

i thought i ll spa o sauna since 1st day im home,

but im so lazy,

omg, i dun wan to waste my holiday,

plz b more hardworking...

arghx...

2 weeks is too less for me,

can i b more greedy,

i wan to extend my holiday can?

hahax...

devil come across my mind leh,

go away faz..

i ll use my time carefully,

dun wan to waste it anymore...

shelter

back to my home after sit for six hours bus,
finally home...
when i c my dad,
i feel so happy...
1st step into my house,
as my guess,
joey, teddy n louis ran towards me,
i love tht scene so much,
nomatter how long i leave,
how much i change,
they owez cn recognize me,
they ll nvr leave me..
daddy went out after fetch me home,
new maid haven come,
so i help mummy to clean the home stuff,
wash some clothes,
mop the floor,
den i feel tired dy...
so i  bath for my beloved teddy,
still the same pattern,
scare of water,
run here n ther when bath...
make me wet by water,
but i still so enjoy,
quite long time i din bath for him...
i still rmb 1st time he come to my house,
i bring him for bath,
but he craw me nonstop,
he scare of water...
at the begining i bath for him twice a week,
slowly i become quite bz,
den change to once a week...
others owez say they feel tired after not long they own a pet,
but i din,
im bz but i still love them deeply,
i feel im more n more love them,
they r part of my family,
they complete me..
nite only meet my mummy,
i din really tell them what happen on sem 2,
dun wanna make them worry...
i can handle everything well,
n all past dy,
is ok to keep it as secret.
however home is a shelter,
from sun n rain,
even they dunno what had happened,
but they owez support me,
they r my power,
i gonna recharge myself again,
after tht i need to fight for semester 3...
yahoo!!! 1st day of my holiday,
bit tired, but i enjoy!!!

summary

after ECS exam, i rush to get my laptop,

due to my careless,

i missed the chance to say goodbye to my friends..

after tht i went to pay rental, room checking n laundry,

i done everything b4 5,

luckily im in time...

after home,

sitting alone in the room,

memory seeped into my mind again,

semester 2, i learned a lot...

 i should ve a nap,

but i din...

chat wif a lot of friends today,

thx for vvv, for b my listener,

i juz need to release my pressure..

chat wif my hang ten group,

i really miss them so much,

one by one leaving here,

i knw tht is impossible for us together forever,

but everything is too fast,

jia hui leave, den u all wanna leave too,

however, i ll wish u all the best,

juz wanna let u all knw,

i really glad to b friend wif u all,

i really appreciate every moment we ve..

for my semester 2,

friendship n family is the biggest support for me,

finally everything end,

step by step,

im walking out from hell,

even a simple msg,

a simple word,

a light hug,

a warm smile,

an unfunny joke,

u all make me feel im nt alone all the time....

do thx a lot to u all,

for the one tht leave,

i miz u so much,

woo, jh...........

for the one is making decision,

i wish u will get ur right way,

sy, wy, jason.......

for the one tht gonna continue sem3,

we work hard together...

my sem 2, end here...

FUTURE

i thought im still young to think bout future,

try to ignore it,

coz i prefer to b a kid..

but i think now i should face the d fact,

semester two gonna end,

the scene on the stage gonna change again,

from around 90 ppl to 70 sth,

i dunno how many ll left this time,

i wish nobody ll leave,

i wish i can stay too,

i wish is juz a wish,

life doesn't let everything b like what we wish,

quite confuse..

when i step out the exam field,

what i count is not the mark i lose,

but is the mark i can ve,

i knw is quite hard for me to pass smoothly...

a lot of ppl plan to change course after their foundation,

even myself,

i oso change my plan again n again,

which one is the right path,

standing between the junction,

im wondering what choice should i make..

last subject tomorrow,

b4 everything end in sem 2,

i wanna talk to someone tht i care,

i dunno when we gonna leave,

i dun wish to c anyone to say goodbye at fb,

i hate tht feel....