food festival, cny

chinese new year is really a food festival,

we ate without any concern,

throw away the worry about weight..

it also is a gathering,

i love to be with my family,

doesn't is a must to held a big gathering,

with those strange relatives,

i prefer to chat and laugh in a small room,

with the one that i really love and care..

we had a lot of reunion meal,

but my parents had prepared too many food,

so we still fail to finish it before we leave..

i found that my elder brother is more close to us,

maybe we had grown up so we start to appreciate,

i am glad that they are my family,

i am happy that my brother joke to me..

my family and my friend always make joke on me,

but i don't mind that,

as long as we are happy and we are together..

we went to hadyai for new year again,

while this time i bought nothing,

but i ate a lot a lot of food,

damn miss chicken steak burger at seven-eleven...

after that we went to grandma's house,

met some cousin there,

grandma phone us and rush us early in the morning,

she said her hands are itchy already,

mahjong is waiting for her..

oh, my grandma love gambling so much,

but that is normal,

luckily this hobby make her day meaningful..

i just got very least ang pau this year,

but i felt more happy compare than before..

i got the truth wishes,

that is the most important things..

i am glad that my parents are smiling,

nothing bad happen,

a good begining for a brand new year..

we tend to forget the hurt,

because we found there are something more important,

try our best in our life for the one that worth,

miss the day to be home...

daddy, mummy don't worry on my choices,

i will be responsible to myself..

chinese new year eve

a brand new year again, 

glad this i can get closer to my family,

glad that my brother become more friendly,

glad that my ang pau credit increase,

glad that WE ARE TOGETHER...

this year i didn't shopping crazily,

i don't have a cupboard of new clothes.

but they are with me,

then everything is more than enough...

brother always joke with us,

that is the best present of the new year,

we have a great dinner..

i love reunion dinner, 

and actually we start to have reunion dinner since last night,

daddy bought too much ingredients,

sad that we can't stay at home longer,

so we decided to celebrate it earlier..

i miss the day we stay together,

in a small house but we are so close,

always chit chat and smile together,

that is our childhood,

we can't live together all the time,

brother need to work.

sister and i need to study,

wish that there will be more and more festival,

we can always back to our home,

talk to daddy and mummy...

we put some fire cracker just now,

i dun like this activity,

but i like to join them...

while, about my children,

i had prepared ang pau for them,

but not money inside,

but full of junk food,

they ask me not to give them cash,

they are too busy to buy things,

so i help them and now i am a member of pet's lover center..

Complex

如果人生就像数字，
计划和想法能清楚的被计算，
生命就会拥有着固定的答案，
活着会变成一种工程式，
大家都变得很简单，
算式人生比童话更荒藐，
童话里的皇后都会有心机，
我们的心更是深沉难解，
偶尔有人对我说他了解我，
知道我在想什么，
我微笑沉默无言，
连我都不知到自己再想什么，
他人居然知道，
那是真的知道，
还是一种安慰..

all about us

sze yee came to kl for 3 days and 2 night,

as she reached, i let she waited me for half an hour,

felt quite sorry about that..

then we went for kfc,

after that we went back to UTAR at pj site,

i felt that campus really will let she feel kampar is heaven,

i wish to be with she at kampar too...

then we went to sunway for window shopping,

we are so lucky to get the girl bus,

we just walk around and mark down what we want...

the main purpose is to meet jh and edan,

while about ivan, he absent again and again...

a nice dinner at kim gary,

chit chat, laugh, joke and smile,

that us, we are crazy..

we seldom say "how are you recently, anything i can help u?"

but we used to say "your life sure is damn pity without me!"

hahax... that is another way to communicate..

and we like to slap and bite each other,

MISS THEM VERY MUCH...

besides my sze yee went to six shopping center in a day,

sure she is very tired,

but i like to bring she walk around,

kampar is a good place to rest,

she can go back to rest after that..

felt quite sorry to she for let she to carry those text book with me,

however that is edan chang fault..

i will always remember the scene where sze yee sit at the roadside,

feel like a phillipine worker at that moment...

finally she still decide to go back on sunday,

but at least she postponed to night,

we went to sunway pyramid again,

miss to eat mamak with she..

is quite long we didn't meet together,

feel so warm to be with them, 
planning to go to genting highlands with them,

wish that coming gathering will be more and more people...

for angie, edan and jia hui,

we will meet at least once a week!!

back

i wish to back to kampar, 
back to the life i used to be,
because i know everything there,
i have my friend there,
but i know i cant do so...
i must let myself to be stronger,
adapt to a new environment,
we cant back to the past, 
as life keep moving,
i have to look forward..
i wish to back to the time when im staying at old house,
a family sleep in a big room,
after bath we need to ask mummy what should we wear,
queer up and wait for the punish of the day,
asking mummy to get more soup for us,
cause we are not high enough..
always sit on daddy leg,
i am always at his right side,
while my sister will be at the left..
i remember the way he smile to us,
brother will buy us some snack after school,
and we keep all of that in a cupboard,
but finally all spoilt..
we are so young on that time,
but that is very far away from now,
i miss everything so much,
but i shouldn't wish to go back,
i need to learn to be a better girl,
i don't want them to worry and take care for me,
change the position, 
i want to own that ability to take care of them..

back to school

but this back to school don't need to buy uniform,

don't have a new school bag,

don't need to wear white shoes with white socks,

then what i have to do??

coming to a whole new place,

i am going to meet some new people here,

i am ready for that,

continue fighting tomorrow...

wohoo, i think everything will be fine,

i wish so,

i will try my best in my last semester...

ALL THE BEST TO MY FRIEND TOO!!

movie day

last movie i watched with them is harry porter,

just i shout like hell,

this time we went for movie again,

location is pavillion,

and we laugh like hell, 

we laugh before the movie start until we are out of cinema,

we aren't mad, but we really happy,

today is a great day..

lunch at subway,

dinner at madam kwan,

dessert at snowflakes,

whats a costly day,

but i enjoy every moment to hang out with them..

thought of a friend when have dinner at madam kwan,

the nasi lemak at setapak really so nice,

i do wish they have a good ending,

however that is past tense,

he should grow and learn to be a better man..

sorry for been late and let them wait today,

promise no next time,

i miss them so much...

my darling is going back to kampar tomorrow,

haiyoyo, i miss kampar pun,

i nak balik kampar visit old folks there..

i am planning, finding a suitable time to go back..

next week i am going to back to UTAR,

but is at PJ site..

i am too free for this holiday,

i want to study so much,

miss the day rush for exam with them..

sze yee, shuishui, wawa, nigel, weng yan and etc....

miss them badly seh,

i want a big hug from them so much..